I can’t believe there are only 125 days until I leave for this trip! These past few months have flown by and the fact that I am graduating soon is crazy, but I am more excited than sad about it. April has been more of a laid-back month. Things seem to be slowing down, both in school and in setting up meetings with people for World Race. I’ve been focusing on other exciting things coming up like an event that will help to fundraise for my trip, graduation, and a trip to China I am taking in June. But in the meantime, I’ve been able to live at peace in Jesus’ presence during this waiting period God has me in.
Recently, I have seen Jesus at work a lot in healing certain areas of my life. I began journaling a couple of weeks ago where I write about things I am struggling with, things from my past, prayer requests I have, and anything else on my mind. Through this, Jesus has helped me work through healing areas of my past as well as realize the importance of the season and place I am in right now. I’ve begun to understand that God has me right where he needs me: caring for and showing the love of Jesus to my family and friends. I’ve always wondered what big purpose God has for me like what career I will pursue, where I will live, and who I will form relationships with. But now, instead of searching for the answers of the future and disregarding the present, I can see that the position God has set me in is right where I’m meant to be at the moment and I’m so glad I can put my time and energy into fulfilling that.
Adding onto this, the more time I spend with Jesus, the more I begin to see myself through his eyes and by what the word says. I used to look in the mirror and not like what I saw, thinking that I was never pretty or fit enough. I still think these thoughts sometimes, but I’m starting to love myself and the way God created me more. I’m so grateful for the healthy body he has blessed me with and the fact that I would think anything otherwise devastates me.
Finally, God has supported me in not putting so much pressure on myself to be “perfect” and have everything down to the tea. Last year specifically, I used to work so incredibly hard to have amazing grades and not make any mistakes. I thought that if I didn’t know all the knowledge there was to know about a topic in one of my classes, I was dumb and didn’t have any worth. After being able to rest A LOT more this year and spend time doing things I enjoy rather than slaving away at studying for another useless test, I’ve learned that my grades and knowledge of subjects don’t define my worth. All that matters is if I tried my best and at the end of the day, whatever score I receive or whatever knowledge I know vs. don’t know is good. However I perform in academics, athletics, or any area of my life, I HAVE WORTH rooted in Christ, and what truly matters is my faith and belief in Jesus.
Now, enough about me. Let me share with you the incredible news about my fundraising journey! Y’all…I’m at 62%!! The Lord has provided in ways I didn’t think were possible and the way that its only been 2 ½ months since I began raising funds and I’m already over halfway raised is unbelievable. Donors have been VERY generous in their means of giving, which truly demonstrates the kindness and selflessness God’s kingdom exhibits. I’d like to give a big thanks to the church I attend, High Point Church, for providing $4,500 towards my mission. I loved speaking with the missions committee about the trip and my walk with Jesus that has brought me up to this point. I can’t wait to see the other miraculous ways God will play a part in sending me across the world to spread his glorious message!
Well, if you read this entire thing, thank you for doing so! I will continue to share updates of the awesome ways God is moving through my life every month leading up to the trip, including each step of this spectacular adventure.
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